So I failed at taking a happy picture today. But what I can say today’s happy is – was making something homemade for dinner. Chicken szechuan stir fry with brown rice. I totally should have snapped a picture but I failed miserably. I was too excited to get back to my fantastic and amazing Friday night alone on my couch with stir fry and HBO Now.
Also, I think I’m going to start working on some longer-term goals. What I want to accomplish by my next birthday, just over a year away. We’ll see how that goes..
To be fair, today’s happy picture started out being some cigars I got in the mail yesterday, but instead today’s happy absolutely turned out to be good time spent with a couple good friends – B and Paul. It didn’t hurt that I had a flight of whiskey and 2 flights of beer and another beer as a kicker. Big C was feelin’ good! Hell – Big C is still feelin’ really good.
In fact.. you probably shouldn’t drink and blog, yet here I am.. and this should be fun..since today I got contacted by the lady that has filled these pages the last few days. Turns out she stumbled onto this blog. And her reaction was.. well, to be expected.
Today’s Happy was creating a virtual Walk in my Shoes for some former call center folks I worked with. Their idea is to create a vault of information on different roles and positions throughout the company. Always happy to help out!
Today was another good day. There were ups, there were downs, but as I said in a Facebook post today was the first day I felt like the old me in about 2 months. And it felt really, really good. Not perfect. Not 100% back to normal. But I’m getting there.
I mentioned taking a picture of what makes me happy each day (if I remember). Today’s happy: Pitchers and catchers report today but I’m always reppin the Crew down here in enemy territory – in Chicago.
So today was an interesting day – to say the absolute least. Anyone who follows me on Facebook saw some of that. I may have vented just a little bit of frustration and anger. But! It was actually a really good day.
Let me explain..
The goal when I started this blog was to act as a way to chronicle my changes to become a better me. Primarily – or solely, even – this was around eating healthier and getting into better, healthier shape. That has gone up and down over the last few years (on the downside right now, but working on it) and this blog has been fairly inactive. Well, I think it may be time to bring it back in a different albeit related capacity.
My personal life has been a mixed bag of emotions over the last 4 or 5 months. Some good, some bad, some amazing, and some horrible. As I currently sit things are on the bad side of that spectrum and that, along with some self realizations over the last few months, have me looking introspectively at who I am, who I have been, and who I want to be. Additionally, I’ve done a lot of thinking on what life really does and should mean to me. I’ve got a long way to go, but I think blogging about that journey will be helpful.
So I’ve been failing horribly at this Biggest Loser challenge. Hoooorrribly.
But! When I weighed in today, I was right back where I started. I lost a bunch early, then I gained a bunch, then I was even higher than I started. But now? I’m back at the start.
So why have I fallen off the path?
I started this blog to not only chronicle my weight loss journey but to help hold myself accountable to keep up with the work I had been doing. Not only did the blog slowly stop to exist, so did the good habits I had put into place.
I had a plan. A plan to hit a certain weight by the end of the year. And I’m way off track.
I have been stationary for the last month. Lose a few pounds, gain a few more, in the end I’m about where I started around the beginning of September. Really, since I hit that overall 100 pound mark. I would like to think I didn’t rest on my laurels, but maybe I did a bit.
So I need to get real again.
The good news is that I’ve been steady at the gym. More on that in another post. It’s eating that’s gotten stupid. So now it’s back at it. I may not hit my mark by the end of the year, but I can give it a helluva shot..